� 2001-2006 by Shiloh
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The weather today has been dismal: windy, chill and overcast. Kinda suited the somber, sleepy mood in this house. (We've been goin' late to bed and some of us have been waking up pretty early.) So understandably we've been low-key.
I called my advisor today to see if she'd gotten in touch with the professor. She's out of town till July 1st! Lately it seems I can't get together with her to resolve my ISU issues once and for all. Twice in the five weeks before the end of the semester she was out sick (an understandable reason) then when I was dismissed she was out of town for a week. She forgot to call me zee last time. But you know, I'm beginning to think I am going to be school-free in the fall, which is fine with me. You have to make thangs happen if you want something, yet I truly believe if they are meant to be, things will fall into place for that something to happen. Things just don't seem to be falling into place in regards to this. It's frustrating because it feels like dirt clumps falling in my face as I try to climb out of the seven foot rut I'm in.
Conversing with Evan yesterday doesn't seem real. He emailed me when I didn't answer his IM right away. I used the chance today to email him to ask the burning question, "What changed?" that I failed to ask in detail yesterday. I almost asked him about how much contact we'd have this time because he left the goodbyes open-ended, but it woulda come off as if I were still infatuated with him so I refrained. I figured if he wanted contact, he'd contact me. We'll see how it goes.
I'm tired, so I'll leave off here, toodles.
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