� 2001-2006 by Shiloh
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One thing about new days, they give you a chance to start over if you messed up the day before. Or to recharge your self-esteem. I'm in a rut and I need to get to out. One minute I think I know a way out, and the next the whole situation seems overwhelming. So much so that I feel like I'm slogging through a quagmire. Yeah, new days offer hope.
I'm sorry if this sounds egnimatic. Right now I feel as if I'm going 10 different directions. One thing though that I know is tomorrow is a new day in which I can better myself. I uh, lost my temper royally with Aubree today. Yes she was acting snobby and treating me like I was a clutzy child in need of chastising. Yes she was making fun of me and putting false words in my mouth, but that gave me no right to retaliate by screaming at her. That's all I did, scream at her that she made her own problems, caused herself her own grief.
I hate losing my temper. I hate how I feel afterwards, like I reverted to a child's mentality. I feel utterly awful, but I couldn't take Aubree's attitude and how she made fun of me anymore. Sure I'm the adult and I should be able to blow it off but...when it's family...no matter who it is, if they keep doing it over a period of days it begins to hurt. Especially if it deals with a disability you have. *deep breath* I hope I can make tomorrow better.
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