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But because of him we safely made it to the runways. To him it's felt like we've been exchanging Icebreakers forever. In reality it's been a week or a lil over a week. *frowns* Should I be worried about his gauging of time in case he goes faster than I'm cofortable with? Or am I doing what I caution Heather against doing, lol. That of worrying 'bout something needlessly before I come to that bridge.
At the time I first replied back with an Icebreaker I did so for three reasons: 1) Heather's comment that I could introduce him to the gospel and doctrines of our church; 2) I was curious to see how long or if he would continue exchanging those silly Icebreakers (and now it's been satisfied); and 3) I was sure I was safe from ever going beyond this first step.
Along with feeling flattered I have other emotions, which are mixed in. I read his profile the first time he contacted me and he seems awesome. I'm saying this cautiously, however. The majority of my experience with guys online has been negative. They were mostly into getting it on hot and heavy and wanting pics right away. They wanted to know if I was a "hottie" and because I don't have supermodel looks they left. And they sprinted away even faster, leaving me in their wake eating their cyber dust, when they found out about my disability. This guy, bgcntryboy, sounds nice, and he's looking for a friend/activities partner/committment. So along with the flattery, hope and curiosity, there's trepidation tinged with a hint of fear that he'll walk the walk so many other guys have. But I'm hoping he'll let this getting-to-know-each-other thing develop at its own pace. And I'm scared to tell him the truth of my disability.
I emailed him last night, late at night. I probably shouldn't have 'cause I babbled a bit before I got to the part of telling a lil bit more about myself. So, I may have turned him off and therefore, won't have to worry 'bout telling him I have C.P. *half hoping, half not* I don't know what I've gotten myself into.
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There is no greatness where there is no simplicity, goodness and truth.
~Leo Tolstoy~
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