� 2001-2006 by Shiloh
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Ah well, I'll survive. And I'll get this thing with Stephen off my mind soon. As I told Mom, he's a nice guy and all, but I couldn't see a friendship continuing if his conceited attitude about himself and women kept up. It woulda gotten on my nerves again and again until frustration most likely woulda destroyed it. It's best I ended as I did, although I hate the most probable fact he will forever more think I lied. But, that's something I have no power over. I do not regret telling him to grow up; I do wish it could have ended with less hostility.
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With the end of a dubious friendship I am reminded of strong, enduring friendships that I still have...that I am loved. Yesterday I received a postcard from Lynda. It is a picture of her, her companion and a family they either teach or just spent Christmas with. She has such a beautiful spirit. I miss her, and it always makes my day to hear from her. She should be about done with her mission by now. And today I got a package from Ruthann. It is a black leather bound journal with a vine-like design embossed on the front. I'm gonna start it with the new year, so it'll be interesting keeping two journals at the same time. Perhaps I'll just use it for my spiritual growth, or to put down any poems or essays I feel inspired to write. Whatever it will be used for, it will have special, uplifting thoughts for my kids to look back on.
I feel truly loved and blessed. Knowing these friendships and others are true and will only grow stronger, makes the hard times bearable. I am very lucky indeed to have been introduced to these people.
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Each time I look at my nutcrackers I become more enamored with them. The first has snow white hair, eyebrows, mustache and beard (which for once aren't painted on). He reminds me of the knight from Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade, except in his nobleman's robes. The second one has hair as black as a raven's, and he reminds me of a noble king leading his army of knights into a battle. He carries a shield with some type of bird of prey on it. The third one is as unique as the other two but harder to describe. His hair and beard are steel gray, while his eyebrows and mustache are white. Except for the fact that he holds three minitature people on a gold thread in both hands, he reminds me of a guard outside Buckingham Palace. I'm drawn to them each for different reasons. The snow haired knight or king has a wise grandfather air about him. The raven haired king has a noble look to him. And I'm reminded of stories or ballads of fair maidens seeing their beloveds off to war and then waiting till they could be reunited. The third one is just striking looking.
Well, I'm going to read some email. Ta! 
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