� 2001-2006 by Shiloh
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This is probably a stupid question, but remember I'm not thinking too clearly. Have you ever been haunted almost by a dream? Oh sure, some stay with you after you wake up, but has one ever overshadowed your thoughts throughout the day, even though you can only remember parts? My dream of last night was like that. It involved Jason, my old friend from ISU. I probably dreamed of him because I've talked to people about him. And because I've thought about him off and on the past few days. In the dream we had a class together, and over the course of the semester we got to be closer than friends. But then I woke up. =os
I have not heard from him in a year, and as I keep saying, I got the impression he wanted to forget everything associated with zee past and move on, not once looking back. I thought I'd accepted this and moved on as well. But he pops into my head every once in awhile and I stew over him for a few days before putting the whole thang out of my head. Now, there's this dream. Feelings remain as it has constantly been the center of my thoughts today. I don't understand why.
And sometimes when a person or event occupies my thoughts, I hear from them or about them a few days later. In the case of the event, sometimes it comes true. In the case of when my mom was pregnant with Kami, I knew she was a girl before the doctor confirmed it. Mike and I were spending the summer in Texas with Nan and Paw Paw, and after Mom and I finished a phone conversation about what the sex of the baby might be I went around the house calling, "It's a girl! It's a girl! Mom's gonna have a girl!" I knew in my gut I was gonna get a sister.
Anyways... I doubt I'll hear from Jason again. Which is why I don't understand why this dream has haunted me throughout the day. Perhaps I'm saddened because a good friend has been lost? I dunno, but if so I wish he'd give me another chance. I know Kjerstina hurt him, but I had nothing to do with that. That was between them.
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