Second entry of zee day.

I love this strip. This is today's For Better Or For Worse. It hits home in more ways than one for me. Shannon is a new character who's just been introduced to the comic strip several months ago. She's a sweet girl who's a bit learning impaired and who's been befriended by April. I'm glad Lynn Johnston has created her as a representative of those who are disabled, in any capacity. It shows she is aware of the many social issues in and the diversity of society. (Which is one of the main reasons why I like this comic strip so much.)

I am a devoted fan.

Another reason this hit home today--and the reason why I'm sharing this particular strip--is the name Shannon gave to the computer's voice. "Justin." Justin is the name I've given to my unknown soulmate. Whomever and wherever he may be. Of course, if I ever do meet him in this life--or I should say when I meet him, whether in this life or in the next, I'll use his real name. But until then, he'll be my "Justin," because I know instinctively he's a just man.

I used to write him letters whenever I wanted to feel close to him, or when I was down and out. I kept them in a folder. I don't know where it is now, and I've not written to him in such a long time. I don't know why. I sort of began to feel silly, I guess, in writing so familiarly to a stranger. I started caring what others might say or think if they ever found out. I also stopped knowing what to say. I guess I sorta second-guessed myself in that area too. And I've wondered to myself if he would even appreciate my endeavors.

What if he thinks these are stupid? I asked myself over and over again.

I've also noticed that with acceptance of the good possibility of me remaining single all my life here on Earth, my desire and motivation to write him has dwindled. I'm not sure I like that.

But really, should I continue and in the process raise hopes that may have no chance whatsoever of coming true?

moon phase